Mamihlapinatapai

Mamihlapinatapai
Is what I feel when I look in your eye.

A connection between us I cannot quite explain,
Yet ignorance of it begins to cause me pain.

We are a neat fit, two souls of leisure,
Who read to expand intellect and play sport for pleasure.

Since young days at school,
I have known you a while,
Perhaps that’s what makes this wait
All the more worthwhile.

What would our friends say
If anything were to flourish?
Or would they desire
For this love to diminish?

I do not make myself more apparent
Than I already have.
I do not want to confront a brick wall,
I do not want to feel sad.

Yet this feeling lingers on,
As I am left in the unknown;
I wonder if you have
Any feelings to be shown?

Am I here alone,
Dreaming dreams to myself
That have no foundation;
A deterioration of mental health?

Will you meet love with a hug,
Or slash at my embrace?
It scares me to show you -
I guess that is a truth I must face.

Otherwise I linger here,
In a place I have been before,
That has driven me up the wall,
Sending me running in and out the door.

I pray to the heavens
That they resolve this for me.
So many times I have done this;
Resorting to a heavenly plea.

Are there forces up there
That wish to intervene,
Or must I affront this once again,
For my feelings to be seen?